The War Is Over You Lost 24x36

The War Is Over You Lost 24x36My very first substance abuse counselor had a painting in her office that I would always stare into as I tried to place all of the traumas of my life into a chronological order out loud. I didnt like glancing over at her, as she had this habit of looking directly into my eyes that made me uncomfortable. I still remember with perfect clarity the large gold framed painting of the forest, all in blushes and contrasting gold and pink. I felt really safe

Like nothing I’ve ever seen it was so beautiful

This painting is a portrait of the lessons that the earth

listening to Janet Jackson Rhythm Nation in my Discman

24x30 Acrylic/ Canvas/ Art Resin Coated

credit reports feel like blood tests or dental appointments

I hope you can feel that peace and acceptance in this portrait

What am I going to do

like a portal that is all of the good of Chicago without being there

I never even knew what that was let alone how to consider it something to work towards

Not knowing what way will be further into entanglement and panic

Sometimes I felt the writing in my body

I was absolutely never driving through Robbins and coming back here again